The Smile Case - Murder Weather (BTR060)

by The Smile Case

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1.
The shed was tucked away about a five minute walk from the beach. I’ve been there before. The path leading to never maintained. The further I wander the fainter the sea. I always figured I deserved this. I never asked why. I guess I’m always high. Maybe I smoke too much? I guess only half care. I guess I do it all the time. I’ve been there before. The invitation is always in the air. The further I wander the more I find myself lost at sea. Take a deep breath and the next thing I know I’m ankle deep standing on a sandbar miles from shore and everyone I have ever met through my whole life is just standing there looking back at me. Their lips are moving however I can’t hear a word they are saying.
2.
I don’t know what I was thinking but I was thinking of getting out of bed today but that door. I don’t know what I was thinking but I started drinking again. I’m in too deep. Three days straight and I can’t keep my head on straight and all I think about is that door. There are kids on the patio drinking and I can’t hear a word they are saying over the Kim Mitchell song that is playing. I don’t know what I was thinking but I started drinking again. I’m in too deep. I’m four days straight and I can’t think straight. Keep my head on. I don’t know what to do except go through that door.
3.
02:19
Could you tell a lie if I asked you to? Could you tell a lie? Could you kill a fly if I asked you to? Could you kill a fly? Could you tell a lie? Could you tell I lied? Could you tell a lie? Could you tell I lied? Could you tell a lie? Could you tell I lied? There was a time in my life where I would lay awake and wonder if there were hidden cameras in my smoke detectors watching my moves detecting my lies and now I know it’s just microphones recording my heartbeat and now that I’m older I realize just how goddamn unimportant I really am. I am. goddamn I am.
4.
It’s hard to believe after all these years you still end up showing up in my dreams. It seemed so real. I could touch your face. I awoke in some other place. When the going is good it’s really good and when it stops you know it stops. It’s hard to believe after all these years you still end up showing up. It seems so real. I could hear your voice. I awoke in some other place. Yeah you know it stops.
5.
I know it’s the furthest thing from the truth but you got to believe me that all I need is for someone to call and tell me it’s where we are suppose to be. I know it’s the furthest thing from the fact but the matter of fact is that the fact at hand is that you always planned to leave. You’ll find some way to break my back. You’ve got two feet and a heartbeat so go do it yourself. You might end up on a beach with a popsicle in the sun. I know it’s the furthest thing from the truth but you’ve got to believe me that all I need is you and all that you need is me. You’ll find some way to haunt me back.
6.
I awoke feeling guiltier than I normally do and I choked at the words. I thought I heard your name. I don’t want it anymore. I awoke from a dream, a memory, feeling ashamed. I just want to know that you’re alright out there. I don’t want it. I don’t want to pull in even though I might see you again. I don’t want it. Even if it means that I can see you again I’d rather stay here with all my friends. We all go. I just can’t let go. I don’t want it to go to hell.
7.
It’s something in your dialect. The way you hold your cigarette. You have a phone call it is collect. It’s me. Do you accept? Do You? I’m a half a day away from home. I need your help. Someone please talk to me. I feel so alone. I’m just trying to find my way back home. I know trouble when I see it. It’s weird it’s like I seek it. It’s sometime somewhere actually it’s only three o’clock. It’s something in the way of how I’m never there and I never care. Maybe I do care.
8.
02:08
I take a drag and realize that you’re a drag. I just want to go home and I take a drag and realize that you’re a dragon breathing fire all the time. How can this be what I’m looking for when I’m only five feet from my door? I take a drag and realize that I can’t breathe. You’re encompassing my whole body and I can’t see and my lungs are turning black. How can this be?
9.
02:02
Think anyone will ever figure it out? I don’t take them for the pain. Oh shit I think I’m pill sick. Just need to stay in bed today. My body aches all the time. Sending shivers down my spine. It’s too late. I’ve got to go. My time is gone. Oh shit I think I’m pill sick. Just need to stay in bed today. Think anyone will ever figure me out? I don’t take them for the pain. Oh shit I think I’m pill sick. I need to stay. I need to lay. I need to stay in bed all day.
10.
03:56
Oh how the years go by. It feels like another life. It feels like it has been a lifetime. Oh how the years go by. I recall the name but can’t picture the face. I know your name. Wouldn’t you like to know what I have been up to? I have been thinking of you. Oh how the years go by. It was all just one big lie. Oh how the years go by. I can recall the name but neither the time nor place. I know your name. Wouldn’t you like to know what I have been up to? I know that we are through but I’m still here just thinking of you.

about

Have you ever got stoned and listened to Stairway To Heaven backwards? Have you found that shed of guilt that is tucked away deep inside? Do you know how to swim? These are some of the deep and meaningful questions asked on The Smile Case’s Murder Weather. Fronted for over a decade by Ben Andress as an acoustic project this is now the second release as a full band featuring bassist Shane McElhone and drummer Jackson Cronmiller. Recorded at 460 Studios in Hemlock, Ontario with producer Kyle Winkworth with the help of friends Alex Winkworth, Justin Hammond & Alex Fruch (The Lexington Cure) and guests Delbert Schott (Elias The Band) Connor Lovat-Fraser (Boys Night Out) Mike Trebilcock (The Killjoys) Justis Krar (Single Mothers) Grey Gordon (Kill Surf City) & Brendan B Brown (Wheatus)

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released February 22, 2019

produced, engineered, mixed & mastered by Kyle Winkworth. All songs written by Benjamin Andress.

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